All that time you were being a bitch you could have just been having a good time.

All that time you were keeping yourself separate from the group you could have just gone along with the flow and all the other people would have less of a reason to write you off as a bitch.

All that time you could have been nice to everyone instead of telling people about your weird and esoteric beliefs and interests.

All that time you kept your headphones on you could have been asking another person about their life and maybe you would realize that you're not that different from other people.

All that time you were so suspicious of everyone new and thinking they have bad intentions for you, you could have been cool and open and accepted them without judgment and allowed them to reveal themselves in time.

All that time your fear of people kept you in a reactive state of feeling salty and sorry for yourself you could have tried to rationalize your feelings and worries and just act like a normal person.

It’s like the first line of a poem. You don’t hold your breath and panic. You breathe and move with it.